Today I faced my biggest fear...

It's scary to face your own shadows I'm fully aware of mine But still...still I keep them hidden Fear that there may never be enough Fear that I'm not good enough Fear of having my heart broken again Fear of being trapped in a situation I don't want Fear of being in a situation that doesn't want me Fear of being with someone who doesn't have the capacity to love with integrity Fear of giving so much of myself & receiving fragments of broken glass in return Fear of hurting others Fear of asking myself the real reason I have allowed myself to be treated poorly in the past Fear that the damage of another persons words may be irreversible in my mind So today I sat with it My fear I shook his hand I looked him in the eyes We hung out by the ocean, my fear and I I let the damp breeze wash over me I felt it cleanse the lies away I felt my innocence I felt my heart beat again I felt my lungs breath again I felt my jaw soften I smiled at a stranger I let go of the anger of what my fear hid from me for years The pain in my heart for not seeing it clearly The in and out behavior I allowed The shouting over me to drown out my voice The subtle put downs that made me question my self worth The avoidance of the obvious The avoidance of the reality The avoidance of the fact that I simply loved a man who didn't love me I met my biggest fear today Only to realize it couldn't control me anymore Because today.... Today my fear removed the veil and I was set free